A state of "Confusion" is what I am not familiar with... I always know what I want and how I want it... I am always dead sure about things... and even if I am confused I dont let ppl know whats happening inside my brain... not many ppl get to sneak peak into my brain... and I am hating it...Arrrggggghhh... how difficult it is for me to understand that life is full of ppl, who just think of themselves...and who dont even care what would others think...and who are mean...
Yes, I am still not going to run after things... I am happy... and I am content... but the feeling of comparison... comparing myself to others... Hate it...!! HATE IT!!! and DETEST IT!!! I am not saying that I am the best... but I want ppl to let me know what are my deficiencies...and where I can improve myself... Even though I know it will be hard for me to understand and yet again to digest it...but I promise to be civil... Let me know...!!
And what I get to hear is..."Please, dont discuss it with ur fellow friends"!! Really..!!??? I dont think so... its not that good as I hoped it would be..!!
I know what I need... I need sweetness overload... and want to cheer for others... and bring a smile on my face and on others tooo... :) There will be another year...I'd shine some other day... I will have it some other time... I am far too young for all this... and I have a loooonnnggg way to go...!! And I have yet to learn alot of things... I have to go FAR... and offcourse these stupid ppl cannot make me feel less of myself... I am a self-motivated person... and to hell with everyone... I know what I have to do...!!!
Life is hard... working is even more hard... and giving "guys" a tough time is also hard...and I know I can do it!!! :P :D
So no more hard feelings... no more of the dread... :) I shall live... and let them live in peace till next year!!
